Sunday, November 30, 2008

wee ~ new week started !!
it a new week i have been better n better w/o that person in my life .. but for now..
i think i would like to b alone .. and single .. coz i dun wan to b in a R/s it quite
hard to mi to take it when i break up again .. mayb i will just wait for my fate to
come find mi n bring mi .. hehes ..

for wad i kne i will leave the place that i will enjoy and i will need to b alone and
let mi think of wad i need to think wad i need wad i wan .. or i can do to make my
life better w/o other person and also keep mi awake .. haix ..

posted Dummtie aka Prince
Dummtie [wildkiss] 5:13 PM Thursday, November 27, 2008

pic of mi ~ <33 my gf n aiai <33




Dummtie [wildkiss] 8:44 PM

how im getting better in my life .. ~~ <33
weee ~~~ getting much more better in my life alread .. i have alread get over it wid
koonda alread .. even i still love him .. hahas but i kne that if just onli 1 hand..
is cant clap wid it .. i need 2 hand to do it.. but thinking of it im so silly.. to
fall for koonda.. which i need to come over wid my Gf <33 and sista <33 and my
dearest wifie ~<33 *hughug* they r my frenz .. lucky wid them den i can stand up and
been better thankz all ~ hahas now .. im in army i also feel better even i kne i
still cant hide things from them coz when i super emo they will so cfm to kne it..
but after all they r still beside mi no matter wad lor.. thankz gers ~ <33 realli
thankz alot hug lots lots <33 muckie <33 lurb ya <33

abt my life here ..

if it can i realli wan to find sm1 that i can love .. and he can love mi as well..
but i kne it hard to find .. but i will just wait for the rite guy to come .. and
sae he love mi as well <33 hahas .. hope he is a gamer .. or people who can ton wif
mi.. i dun mind to wait .. i just dun wan to get hurt ani more .. T_T i feel pain
and not nice ~~ T_T hahas ..

feelin r not means to b hurt feelin is for u to feel it..

can ani1 feel mi now xD hehes ..

wifie if u r reading my blog ar .. rem to sms mi tell mi which 1 of my ign is nice
hao marh x33

Posted Prince AKA Dummtie

~x3LesShiWo x3 GayShiWo~x3
~x3LesShiWo x3 GayShiWo3x~
~x3LesShiWo x3 GayShiWox3~
Dummtie [wildkiss] 6:07 PM Sunday, November 23, 2008

NO PPLZ READ MY BLOG <33
life always come wif different things around mi .. like my place .. it realli seem
to b like funny pplz .. wired pplz .. selfish ppls.. ermm.. still gt alot more la ..
but i just kne .. every1 just dun like aj .. >.< even in my place i try to act wif
them .. but they still find out im 1 haix. so .. i dun kne wad to sae .. coz people
always sae that aj is tiz aj is that y cant pplz look @ wad aj is doin .. y ppl like
to anit mi .. as a aj .. T_T in my place here i hardli talk to people .. i hardli
sae hi to ani 1.. the onli think i sae is morning sir .. morning mdm .. that all i
sae in my place .. ya sometime i realli feel down , and emo , but wad can i do ..
there is no 1 to talk to mi .. there is nth for mi to talk to .. how i hope my blog
is hidden .. and how i hope my bi will not even c tiz msg .. even if bi seem it . i
also dun kne wad he will do.. hahas ..

how i hope ..


realli hope ..


realli realli hope .. that my world can realli end up .. @ time i realli y do pplz
haf HIV+ .. or aids.. or heart act.. y none of them is on mi .. hahas ..

there is frenz that i realli can talk wif ? is there people i can realli tell them
how bad im in here ? or is there some other human i can respon wif .. but if there
is .. dun tell mi is my bibi .. coz i now realli seldom talk wif him .. alread .. i
think mayb is this blog here .. i can just type all i wan w/o ani1 notice abt it ..
and i can still be the 1 hu realli look happy like my life is full of joy.. w/o
hurt .. w/o anithink.. hahas.. which i dun kne .. when i can b like that .. but if
im outside i do look vri different .. coz when in my place i dun realli talk to pplz
around .. but i can just sms .. <33 GF .. she if the 1 that help mi in all ways ..
but how i hope .. i realli have no feeling @ all ..


even my family member.. like my mum .. my grand mum/dad.. sis ?

haix .. how i realli hope .. i was not born in this worlds .. i can never come .. it
make mi even more hurt .. more sad .. y do they hate mi so much .. wad did i do ..
that till they wan to hurt mi ... hurt my feeling .. take my thing my everything ..
sob .. no pplz will understand mi ..

frenz . stead . family . sister. bother . mother .father....


ani of them realli can give mi.. a feelin which i wld get hurt .. will not get
feeling down .. will not b up set .. will not b emo .. ..


i ones had a vri close frenz realli close until we meet up alomost everyday .. tiz
and that we can even talk all day long .. like im not happy wif tiz not happy wif
that .. i tell him .. he also will tell mi.. but for a vri long time ago i met his
buddy .. 2 buddy .. vri close wif him also .. end up just bcoz of a small things
realli a small things. ya .. we broke up tiz frenz ship .. like now i also dun dare
to talk to ani1 to my feelin alread i would just hide it .. but i was silly until
that my frenz sae he dun mind .. to b my frenz back again .. ya.. but i was so
happy .. again i tot we can just b as the same loving frenz tiz n that .. but end up
he change alot alot to mi but i dun kne wad.. i when to tell others of my other
frenz ..

they tell mi they r just using u .. u tiz n that ask mi now to mix wif them ani
more.. there is 1 moment .. i kept crying like now .. i just dun kne .. y .. i means
mayb they r 1st n realli close frenz .. erm ...

HATE EVERY1!!!!!!! HATE THIS WORLD !!!!!!! HATE MYSELF <333

POSTED FROM DUMMTIE AKA PRINCE
Dummtie [wildkiss] 5:59 PM Tuesday, November 18, 2008

1st day w/o HIM ..
haix.. i like the 1st day .. u kne he moment i wante dto msg a 'good morning bibi'
but it seem to b he is realli bz .. and also .. i knw how much i give in to him
he will also sae that he as no feeling for mi .. which i kne that time i realli hurt
him how i wish that time can turn back .. but after which i dun think can.. if can i
will wan to go back 2 yrs ago .. and start to date wif him again but .. now .. it
realli blank in mi .. i felt so moody .. cant eat .. ytd i when to play para para wof gf n sister ... i told them .. wad happen wif mi n him ..den gf was so angry ..
but i told her.. if he is realli mine he will b,if he realli haf feelin for mi.. ya
i will b vri happy .. but .. nope nth @ all .. he sae that the feeling is alread gone aways not like 2 yrs past if it 2 yrs past yes he can .. but now .. it like
no.. coz every thinks seem to change alot and also seem to b different and not the
same i felt so sad .. i cry ytd .. n tiz morning .. coz of him i kne we can b tgt
hope i hope we haf a good time so that i can realli rem.. but . nope .. haix .. aniw
i felt vri different rite now .. dun knw if im doin the rite tings.. wad i told gf n
sister was .. i wan to turn str8 .. i dun wan to b a AJ ani mroe .. which i cant ..
duel to smth stupid things i haf done .. if i kne this type of things will happen to
mi i will just quit.. but every tings came to b to late alread.. now nth can b
change alread .. i need to do wad i can do .. hahahs .. in a "AJ sin" everyting seem
to look nice but all .. will turn out to b like shiit .. i dun wan it to happen
to my best frenz .. now i realli dun wan to haf a r/s ani more i just wan to b alone
i will just wait for him to come back to mi .. i will kept all thing or i might just
throw it in the bin so i will not think of it ani more .. best is i could just MIA..
and dun wan to c him animore..

(last MSG from my blog) i will not BLOG again ^^

or i will not blog in tiz blog alread

i will blog smth new n nice ... but nt @ here

Posted Dimmtie aka Prince
Dummtie [wildkiss] 6:51 PM Monday, November 17, 2008

some 1 i love sobx leave mi



love is not about finding someone you can live with, its about finding someone you cant live without.

i want to hold your hands, feel you warmth, be with you forever >.<

you are what makes me strong.

if its wrong to love you, my heart just wont let me be right.

ive been waiting for you throughout my life.
you will never be replaced.

but after giving me the love i needed, you left me with a broken heart.

i dont like you, cause i love you. <3

i dont want you, cause i need you.

i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will die for you.

i wouldnt do anything for you, cause i will do everything.

i chose my life, cause you're my life.

so why did you leave me?
Dummtie [wildkiss] 11:06 PM

sad / happy ? which 1 u belong to ..
there is smth inside my heart ..

i dun kne wad to sae abt it..

sometime it hurt when i started thinking abt it ..

i kept wondering .. how to do it and i can make it perfect for everything ..

but i dun kne ..

but everytime i did it, it seem to b like the wrong things...

hahas..

let make it this why ..

why does everytings has to put a ''fullstop'' infront of it ? why can u put a ',' .. it seem to b nice in some way ..

but some ways r never mean to be like tiz ..

where i sae i let him go that point of time ?

did i realli lettin him go ..

he is realli getting his happiness or dose it realli dun means ani things to him ..
people told mi tiz .. " when u realli like that people , let him/her be wad they
wan .. coz if him/her realli belong to u .. he/she will be wif u for life.."

till now i still thinking if we realli haf a chance to b tgt if not ..

i think i will b a none..

i dun wan to b in ani more aj place nor i will b in ani str8 place like arcade like he always do .. he like to play ddr..

i hope if i realli goes to arcade i hope that i will neber c him ..

coz i dun wan myself to b hurt ..

i wan him to b happy ..

so i also need to b happy ..

but ..
i cant ..
coz i cant realli let him go ..
i realli wan to stay wif him ..
i realli wan to stable wif him ..

i realli realli love him i dun mind if he is wif another guy but i will still b jelouse..

yesh ..

but that is him ..
i cant stop him ..
from doing ani thing he realli like ..
if i wan him to take note abt mi more ..
i dun kne wad to do ..

but i use a silly ways ..
i sae im going to meet another aj frenz which is woo-ing mi..
but ..
i stay @ home i din meet ani 1 coz i scare after i realli meet some1 he will b angry wif mi or smth ..

so i din meet up wif him or smth ..
c guess how silly i realli was ..
but sae the turth do i need to let him go ?
or can i sae it this ways..
can he realli be wif mi ?
can we realli last for long ?
even if we tgt back again do he haf ani feeling for mi ?
yesh.. ? no.. ? tell mi ..
wad can i do ?
who can help mi who ?
realli who ?
tell mi smth plz..
i dun kne wad to do now ..
i realli hurt myself
.. y
... y...
i dun wan to do tiz ani mroe ..
i feel like ..
just end it ..
but ..
it to hard for mi ..


POSTED dummtie aka prince
(EMO-ing)
Dummtie [wildkiss] 8:47 PM

emo

!!~~ EMO EMO ~~!!

!!~~ EMO EMO PRINCE ~~!!

feelin ? heart ? y do u do that to mi ?? did i hurt u or did u hurt mi ???
feeling ? heart ?? hurt ???

how much do u kne i give in my feelin to u ? you still dun get it ? it dont matter
how much i put in .. i just wan u to kne .. i love you . i dun mind to put in all my
feeling and get nothing as long as i see you happy .. and i can c u smile i dun
mind.. but if u realli dun haf the feelin to mi wad the point being tgt .. i just
need to sae .. dar i love you too .. i feel like c-ing u everyday .. and can talk
wif u tiz , that .. but all is just a dream to mi .. coz no1 has ever done that to
mi .. that all i wan .. but i still dun kne wad i do to make u so sad n unhappy abt
mi ? not just that i kne it realli hurtful to u it bcoz i realli hurt u that much
till u dun realli haf the feeling for mi .. till that day ? or the day we meet up
again ? if u dun haf the feelin for wad u hold my hand ? and kiss mi ? and hug mi as
well ? tell mi ... i just wan to kne .. but if u realli found ur ture love .. or some
1 u realli love.. i will not stop u from going over.. and i will wish u happy stayin
wif him/her.. as wad i kne love cant b force .. but i will make sure that person u
realli love will also put in that much of feelin to u, just like wad i haf done to
u .. but i kne everythings it abit to late for mi to save alread .. and i think from
today on .. i will not msg u ? bibi ? bi ? or ani sweet msg alread .. coz i knw u
alread had some1 in ur mind.. hahas .. happy tgt wif that person hope u make the
rite things .. i will b waiting for u to come back ^^ anitime .. always love u

heart.. but when i type out all this .. it realli make mi so hurt .. i feel
like .. .. .. i dun kne wad to sae .. hahas .. if painful .. so sour .. tears keep
flowing .. but i dun care .. as much i gt hurt it better .. coz tiz is wad i wan ..
coz i will never find a love.. all my love as alread given to u .. i has no more
alread .. even if i still haf .. all has alread been dead .. or useless alread ..
coz no matter wad ..there is still a slot for u .. even i kne we r tgt not that
long .. but tell u i alread fall for u alread .. if u believe or not .. i have nth
much to type here alread .. realli .. how much saddness i had .. i will not
understand ..

did i hurt u / u hurt mi ..

no u din hurt mi ... im willing to b hurt by u coz .. all the pain is wad i b4 had
done on u now that u r returnin back to mi.. so i will also b fine wif it ..

out of a sudden.. it being my whole new life again .. sad ? loneli ? all by myself ?
there is nth more i can add on alread
y does people haf love ?
ans: -

y do people haf knownlage ?
ans: -

y do people haf male n female ?
ans: -

y do people haf feeling ( hurt , pain , sad , happy, ..ect)
ans: -

y do people have heart ?
ans : -

y .. do i haf so mani y ?
ans : -

POSTED Dummtie aka prince EMO

Dummtie [wildkiss] 5:44 PM Sunday, November 16, 2008

y cant i get a ture love .. my fate n my love ?
hahaha.. im dreaming again .. how can i realli find a ture love.. i fated 1 ? lols.
both ? tgt hahahas im laughing alread how i hope my bf can tell mi more things which
i can kne .. but onli thing i wan to do is to just a look of his i also will b vri
happy but end up .. i think i irriated him .. haix .. i dun kne wad to do now .. i
feelin even more down .. i think it bcoz of tiz morning it happen to b wad i write
abt my frenz ? i mean MY CLOSE FRENZ .. that dun wan mi as a frenz as mi in trap ..
den sae i did the wrong thing . haix i reall realli cant take it alread .. ltr stead
bf love.. all is bull shit .. i dun wan to take tiz ani more i think i shold just
stay single for a while and dun wan to haf a bf ani more it just hurt mi even
more .. i dun wan wad to happen to mi again n again it realli HURT MI alot realli
when he dun even wan to talk to mi wan to thorw mi alone there .. it like im all
alone again.. but i kne mayb the feel to mi to him as alread gone far aways .. dun
knw when will the feelin from mi to him to b back ???

POSTED Dummtie AKA prince Dummtie [wildkiss] 9:31 PM

sad day T_T
haix , notice smth .. is vri different .. nowaday.. my bibi .. also din msg mi ..
coz of the work he is doing now .. i think i realli miss him to much .. as much as i
can just wait for his msg till the next morning which he still din knw .. haix ..
sadded >.<>.< den i tot that ytd i can meet him n haf a hug from him but he sae he
will b doing his work till very late.. so i waited for his msg.. no msg return ..
even now .. a morning msg also .. haix.. T_T

BI i miss u .. >.< but u .. .. .. .. nbm

Posted from Dummtie aka Prince
Dummtie [wildkiss] 3:31 PM Wednesday, November 12, 2008

what army life link to dummtie >.<
as im saying .. im alread in army alread hahas but still have the hope of my army
faster .. which alot ppls tell mi enjoy ur camp life and u will enjoy ur day fast
den after which i can finish my army life faster hahahas. which i dun think i can do
it .. coz some time in army i will feel down n moody or i might emo coz i onli can c
my bibi on weekend but not week day .. weekday i can c him but is just for a short
while not vri long but i still hope weekend is coming soon so that i can c my bibi
soon *hug bibi* muackie * opps .. but when im in army that time i still feel vri
happy coz i learn alot of new things in it like lifeskills ? also haf alot more ..
but the fun part in army is i can c alot alot way alot more of different pplz in
camp .. hahahas. some of them can even make mi luagh .. but some can b vri irriting
=x and some can b vri moody everyday (just like myself) hahas.. but i still rem the 1
st day i when in to army .. i found a new frenz over there .. hahas end up we b came
sista .. =x den after that i called him GF coz we realli get along well hahas even
tot i kne him from btm and he look realli different from others but is fun mixing
along wif him .. hahas..ermm ermm .. which i think alot of different things in amry
coz i tot army camp r all the same .. =x den i came to my camp .. i c more different
coz i realli c alot of 'ajs' hahas which i dun realli like coz aj who realli acts str
8 .. realli make mi wan to vomit out opps .. hhahahas ok i think i will stop here ..
coz i realli need to rush to camp hahahs
cya reader =s

x33 bibi muakcie x33Posted from Dummtie aka Prince
Dummtie [wildkiss] 5:24 PM Tuesday, November 11, 2008

What Dummtie is doing in the time being ><
Yoz.. im dummtie ~ also known as prince in my game hahas i'm a freaking gamer.. in
auditionSEA, cabalSEA.. My age is known as (year) - (1989) = age hehes .. coz i lazy
to update my age =x haha vri troublesame LOLs.. but im doin my NS now .. is quite
nice inside there but there is people is who is somehow very funny. but never mind i
think i still can take it .. cause there is fun time n bad time .. like the weather
it will also change different rain or sunny day =x hahahs .. but what i have been
doin is lucky i found my stead .. we miss contect for 2 yrs plus ..

Posted from Dummtieland aka Prince =DD
Dummtie [wildkiss] 10:47 PM

Cry which hurt mi.. Tears of pain T_T
haix it hurt mi when both my gf n stead fight on 1 day .. T_T i dun realli wan to c
my stead n my gf fight coz its realli hurtful when one of them gt hurt or smth .. i
also will get hurt myself haix hope tiz thinks will end soon.. also both of them can
b frenz again.. HELP MI

dummtie aka prince
sad day
Dummtie [wildkiss] 6:59 PM

our 1st weeks <33 hahas tgt so happy ~
I think is our fate to b tgt again ~ haha coz it like we knw each other for like so
long then we r tgt again coz i still rem the 1st time i meet him and be wif him that
time is @ satosa but aft that we i think we din call each other again i also dun kne
y .. but what i kne is aft 2 yrs plus later which is like 1 week ago .. i meet him
again which is 1 of my close frenz who intro mi to him .. so we started datin .. den
till now .. hahas . but im vri happy now .. which i kne him <33> den also when over
to play my Fav game RF <-MY FAV-> hahas.. den i realli do rnjoy the time im wif u bi
<33 love you lots muckie

Posted from Dummtie aka prince ~
Dummtie [wildkiss] 6:13 PM Monday, November 10, 2008

hi im a new blogger
hi, every ones im new here .. Hope u all enjoy reading mi n my cpl story ..
hahas <33winkz
Dummtie [wildkiss] 11:33 PM